I left these two alone for a few minutes and came back to this. At first glance (and sound), I thought she was choking him. Quite wrong, mama, quite wrong.
A few weeks ago, we discovered Eva has the ability to make Miles come unglued. No one else can do it...just her. Believe me, we've tried everything. The first time he giggled, I knew I hit the jackpot. I've always hoped for one of those laughing YouTube babies. Ferris is out of town for a few days, so this is a little present for him.
Note: Vimeo and I have been having a rough go of it.Despite several attempts to fix it, you can only see about 20 seconds or hear about 45 seconds. You get the drift, though.
But today was a special occasion. Eva asked to make a movie to send to Nanny and Grandma (aka. Ferris' mom and My Mother the Prude) showing off her 'ponies'. My child has short hair because there are no circumstances under which she will allow any type of tying device in her hair for longer than three seconds. Never could, never would, never will no doubt. Plus, chicks with short hair kick ass, but that's another story.
I have no idea how they did it, but the miracle teachers from school managed to make it happen. And now there is documented evidence.
Over the weekend, we spent some time in Rockport visiting our dear friends. They moved there a few months ago, taking our hearts with them. While I miss them somethin' awful, it's definitely no hardship getting to visit such an enchanting place. Rockport, another reason to love Maine.
And what did we ever do before swimmy noodles were invented?
Get the flash player here: http://www.adobe.com/flashplayer
We're going to round the week out with a total indulgence of more Miles. Why? Because it's Friday and it's my blog and I need these little treats to remind myself that it's all worth it.
Because it really is so worth it.
I totally lost my shit last Friday. It was the first postpartum breakdown. I hit a wall. Normally, when I hit a wall the whole friggin' world knows about it. I process things externally, in case you haven't already noticed. This one crept up on me sneaky-like, and by the time Ferris got home from work on Friday evening, all I could do was sit still and not cry. I didn't want to cry. It started with days of shallow breathing and heart palpitations as the anxiety set in and started to squeeze my insides. Then, on Friday, Ferris had plans to take me out to dinner for my birthday with reservations at 6:30 sharp. Lets just say that the Mama duties prevented me from getting into the shower until 6:05, and I was pissed. Maybe less pissed than hurt...hurting...exhausted...overwhelmed...done.
But, see. I've done this before, and I knew exactly what was happening before it even happened. So I sat quietly at the restaurant until the panic subsided. Then, I had a lovely evening. Yes, I've done this before which means I've learned some lessons. This time, I've decided not to sit back and complain about how I need a break or a hug or a nice warm bath. I'm not going to complain about it because I'M GOING TO DO IT. No muss, no fuss. So, over the weekend, I took a warm bath, several long naps, and I hired some care for Miles. Just a few hours was all I needed to get back on track. I also know that this will happen again. This time, though, it's not so scary because I know I have some control...control enough to do something.
I knew this video would be chalked full of 'coochicoos'. At this stage, getting even the smallest response from Miles is enormously gratifying. But as I played it back, I caught myself at the very end rambling on with a bunch of 'I love yous' that broke my own heart. I didn't remember saying that when I was filming, probably because it's the kind of thing a mama says a million times a day. It was nice to hear myself, though. Makes me feel good about what I do.
Make no mistake, our transition into a family of four has not been this sweet although many moments have been even sweeter. I need to think more about what's happening between Eva and I before I write about it. Until then, we'll pretend it all looks and sounds like this.
Thursday, June 3, 2010 at 01:56PM